I'm onto myself after all these years.  I've let my reptilian impulse brain run without my consent for the majority of my life and now I'm onto myself.  My brain is a thought-producing machine; it's job is to churn out thoughts at a high speed (about 60,000 thoughts per day).  It doesn't discriminate.  Any thought will do.

For a long time (going as far back as I can remember), my brain has told me that I'm incompetent.  I'm an incompetent student, an incompetent mother, definitely incompetent socially, incompetent at any job I've held down.  I gathered evidence to support this thought and I really believed it.  It was firmly lodged in the packed-down soil of my mind.

Recently, I emptied the contents of my mind (I do this regularly and often) and took a look at what was there.  "You're incompetent."  Oh.  No wonder I was feeling anxious and out of sorts.

It is excellent hygiene to inspect the contents of the mind regularly.  When I do this (either out loud or on paper), "You're incompetent" makes a regular appearance.  It is just hanging out, loitering, and not doing anything useful really.  In fact, "You're incompetent" is not only a useless thought, it's downright poisonous when I get hooked by it and live as if I believe it.

Is "You're incompetent" true for certain?  No.  How do I react when I believe this thought?  I feel all wobbly and show up small.  Who would I be without this thought?  Free to focus on other things.  What is the opposite of this thought and does it resonate with me?  "I know what I'm doing."  Ah.  Yes.  That thought resonates with me.  When I think this thought, I feel powerful and at ease with myself.  When I think this thought, I am free to focus on what really matters.  "I know what I'm doing."  That is a believable thought for me.

Until next time,