I sometimes take it for granted that I’m a ninja at my food habits.  I forget the pain and struggle it took to create and sustain an automated life at my ideal body weight, free from binge eating and obsession with food.

It’s easy now.

But the ease came at a cost.

I had to do the work to get there.  It took time, lots of time, failure after failure, and grit.  Lots of grit.  And now I get to walk free for as long as I wish.

People on the outside think my freedom was easily won.  They think it’s always been so easy for me.  They don’t see the behind the scenes work that I’ve done and continue to do daily.  There’s an expectation that this work should be easy.  It becomes easy, yes.  But not right away.

It’s hard until it becomes easy.

The only difference between me and those on the other side is that I didn’t stop.  I kept thinking that freedom from binge eating and food obsession is possible.  I kept thinking, “I will figure this out no matter what.” I returned to the drawing board many times.  I tried permutations and combinations.

One thing I didn’t do?  I didn’t stop.

And now it’s easy.

Until next time,